FUCK YOU, Cancer!

As some of you already know, my mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer in June ’12 (see an earlier post: mom’s story). She immediately began chemotherapy and had undergone 17 treatments. There were good days and bad days. In the end it didn’t work. Her struggle with this horrible disease and her suffering have ended. She died on November 5, 2013.

I can’t really fully express what I am feeling, but I know many of you understand. Sadness, devastation, fury, frustration, relief, helplessness, resignation, disbelief, emptiness, grief, anger. Right this moment it’s just RAGE. FUCK YOU, Cancer!

30 thoughts on “FUCK YOU, Cancer!

  1. dglassme

    Mogatos, I’m sorry, very very sorry…my heartfelt condolence goes out to you, this shit is just heart wrenching. And the anger will run deep, you’ve lost a lot to this dreadful disease both in your family and in yourself. Wish I could be there to give you a hug and shoulder to cry on, instead I send you a virtual {{{Hug}}} from abroad. ~D

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  2. Kim Emery

    Devastated for you honey. I am sick to my stomach. Lost my Dad almost 5 years ago this coming January. Cancer SUCKS. Death SUCKS. Being without a parent SUCKS. Grief SUCKS! The whole thing SUCKS. Hugs…. sending you lots and lots of virtual hugs. XOXO Kim Emery

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  3. helensamia

    I am so sorry for your loss and send condolences to you and your family… yes FUCK THIS CANCER.. I lost my dad age 56 to cancer so I know a little of your feelings and I still miss him over 20 years later… sending you a hug and shedding some tears for your pain.. i am at a loss as to what to say xxxxx

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  4. Ray

    I am so so sorry for your loss. Although I’m just a reader of this blog, my prayers are with you… All the females in my family with this mutation died of ovarian cancer. Cancer does suck…

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  5. Robin Axelson

    I am so so sorry to hear this! My condolences to you and your family. My heart is heavy. Yes, too many, too many have been lost!

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  6. April Anderson

    I am so sorry for the loss of your Mother. And the past loss of your sister. I am sorry for their suffering and yours. My heart goes out to you. I have been reading your blog for a few months. My sister sent me a link. It has been helpful to us. We are a few months behind you in reconstruction following PBM. Thank you for all you put in to it. I have recommended it to others. I am BRCA1 positive and my family has also suffered the great loss of too many beloved women. I agree, FUCK YOU CANCER!

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  9. thesmallc

    I am so sorry your lost your mama. I lost my grandmother (who raised me) to ovarian cancer too, in 1998 (she was young) and I still feel angry and sad about it. I completely empathize with your story. I will add you to my prayers for inner peace. Once day at a time is how we do it. xoxo

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